Jeremy John

blah

2003-03-03T18:00:10Z

Its been a long time sence i wrote in this all thats new is that i am in a band called Edward the bear........ thats about it

Fade to Gray

Under my skin

2002-12-23T08:28:23Z

The tour rocked I love those guys in unsilent reign. Had such a good time and i met this awesome girl who happens to live right by me so that rocks to. But some drama whent down today that i must clear up. One the entery on *06 Dec 2002|09:44am* was about a girl who i met when i first moved to orlando and kin of dated for a while and liked alot then she moved away.... sucked but it didnt mean i didnt stop liking her. One day i get an im from her sn talking shit and telling me never to talk to her again. turns out it was her bf just being an ass and she said she was sorry. Now i think there has been a mix up on who that was about so know i hope everyone knows whats up. Two do not threaten my family in plantation thats hitting below the belt. i will not wach my back.

fucking a

2002-12-12T07:30:19Z

Dose anyone think about other people beside themselves? I would like to think I do. But I feel saddened because I don’t believe most people do. I think most people think about only what they are going to do and not how what they do effect other people. I have lived most of my life with a curse. In that I get stood up.... A lot. I wonder if I set myself up for it? I don’t think I do. I try and think if I missed something that the other person said such as "if I don’t call by such and such time I am doing something else and don’t care about you enough to fucking call you" you know something like that....

Anyways its been a year this month..... a whole year dang where did the time go I remember it like it was yesterday. Being told that all your hopes for that someone to like you back and stay together.. for that privilege to say sorry i have a girlfriend.....To hold someone knowing they are holding you not for the touch but just to be close... all those special things to be shattered like so many shattered pieces of glass broken by one who you cared for so much. It still hurts..... maybe because people sense then just add to the pain and yes you are apart of this pain (you know who you are so now you don’t have to ask)I refuse to think that if I stop caring I will stop hurting I think that caring is the only thing keeping me together but at the same time it tares me apart it seems I have fades to gray........

so...

2002-12-06T17:45:58Z

Yea ok well I havent done much writing on here cuz i dont think anyone cares. Anyways the last few weeks have been shitty but whayever. Melissa is comeing down soon!!!!! cant wait. Someone who i really liked told me to stop iming her cuz she has a boyfriend now and there is no point. WHAT AN ASS. Bitch had me in tears. So here is what i have to say about that. FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCCCCKKKK YOU, YOUR COOL, FUCK YOU PEACE I AM OUT! Fade to Gray

Drama

2002-11-02T08:55:00Z

Well a few days ago my sister and her boyfriend broke up. After three years and 2 years of living together my sister now has to find a new place to live. Sucks.... So i have been dealing with that.I am really sleepy right now. Halloween sucked once again this year. Just like every year. Atleast i dont have a girlfriend to dump me now. These last few days will fade to gray.

Rock ON

2002-10-23T14:41:00Z

Last night rocked hardcore. I met up with my friends in poison the well. havent seen those mother fuckers in a long time. Got back stage hung out with thiem for a while and some kids from back home. Met jessie from op ivy who is a cool guy. Met thursday (who are not emo fucks) rocked out on stage with PTW and rocked the VIP with thursday..... Thanks to jeff and chris for making my night rocken....... This day will never fade to gray.

Night of sadness

2002-10-19T20:31:26Z

So much to say..... ok yesterday was ok I finished a shadow box i was workign on and it came out so freaking good. After that I took my kittie and whent to a few peoples houses 3 to be exact my cat rocks..... anywho night ended around 3 or so came home and i get a phone call at 4ish (When it stated) It was my sises bf telling me shes fucked up and I need to come get her (fucked up= drunk as fuck) So i ran out the door jumped in my car and my throtal broke.... which means you can step on the pedal all you want but nothing will happen....... So great my car just broke down and i need to get to my sister. SO with the help of some guy i pushed my car back into a spot and ran off back to the apt. Luckly jason and ashley (a girl who i liked but dose not like me)where waching a movie so i asked her if i could borrow her car... she said ok and i was off again. I get to my sises house and there is a cop outside. They where just being loud and someone called. My sis was all up set so i took her back to my house and put her to bed i when up stairs and feel asleep with my cat. woke her up at 9 30 to go to work and took her home.... I hope everything is ok. I cant find anyone to come over and spend time with me so thats sucks so i am going to draw my worrys away. For my sises sake I hope this fades to gray soon.

gerr

2002-10-18T06:55:19Z

Tonight my house hold had a party. It sucked so bad. My roommate who i dont like cuz hes dick is in the serf club or whatever and those people are shuch assholes. I miss my kittie i want to snuggle with her..... hope to god this night fades to gray.......

i am the taxi

2002-10-13T08:32:42Z

Tonight was no fun for me. Everyone likes to party but me i like my friends but they want to go out and party A.K.A get drunk. well for those of you that dont know me. I dont drink so I drive..... well driving all over orlando gets old......... did anyont thank me for making there night safe? did i get any phone numbers? did i meet anyone new? NONE OF THE ABOVE..... shitty o and the hole girl friend thing just gets worse. my day sucked not as bad as one of my friends from back home who i wish i could hug and kiss....... (you know who you are) but still it was no fun....... cant wait till this day turns to gray........

yea

2002-10-07T19:56:20Z

This weekend was filled with driving the drunk. And hanging with friends. School gos well. My parents came up too. They rock had a good time. I still need a gf so if you know of anyone out there who wants a bf and lives close let me know..... hehe untill then I will fade to gray,......

yea

2002-10-07T19:56:17Z

well

2002-10-02T14:40:02Z

last night sucked. It was filled with boredom and everyone when out but me cuz i am not 21 and i am a guy. You see in orlando and i am sure other places you must be 21 to get in some places BUT WAIT there is more if you are a girl with boobs you can be 18. Sounds like sexual discrimination I wonder if i could sue or something cuz i think thats fucked up. Whatever. Its not that I like clubs i just wanna be with my friends of which they like clubs. Shit my pizza is burning.......hang on ok its not that burnt.... where was i o yes so fuck clubs they suck anyways. I am drawing jack the pumpkin king for someone i will post the drawing when i am done so in the next few days look at my pics and tell me if i did a good job. well its only 10:30 much of the day is yet to be done but like any other day this day will fade to gray......... o yea hi ashley thanks for reading my journal

ucf

2002-09-29T04:59:04Z

Whent to the game today it was ok. Everyone likes getting drunk so as always i just sit there. Last night i met a girl she was very very pretty and seemed nice. We talked and she lives in my apt complex she was way to pretty like damn hot pretty she looks like the red head from that 70s show. Well I like her and all but like shes to pretty. Anyways make a long story short she works at hard rock by disny and she got me a jack from nightmare befor x-mas dall. HOW FUCKING NICE IS THAT. It was so sweet of her to think of me like that. More people need to do that for people it makes theim feel so good. Anyways other shit whent down (no i didnt makeout with anyone or anything like that) but i had an ok time but everyone gets drunk! I am always the D.D. atleast they are safe cuz of me but it makes me feel like a mom. o well the saying of the day is.......... "fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, your cool, fuck you, peace i am out" fade to gray..........

PARTY

2002-09-24T22:23:33Z

Its my room mates bday so we are throwing a party hope there are ladys here hehe..... Test today whent ok hope tomorrows gos ok. Tonight will fade to gray..........

PARTY

2002-09-24T22:23:31Z

Its my room mates bday so we are throwing a party hope there are ladys here hehe..... Test today whent ok hope tomorrows gos ok. Tonight will fade to gray..........

Life gos on

2002-09-24T00:06:09Z

Lets see... I met some awesome girls one of which dose not live here but lives in coral springs so dating capabilities or limited but she really rocks. Then there is this girl here who is sooooo cool reminds me alot of my best friend who lives in philly. She is really cute too like super cute. But wait whats the she has a boyfriend.... shitty looks like i am going to be the best friend again. But thats ok cuz i would rather be surrounded by fucking cool ass people then no one. My friends band unsilent reign is playing up here on the 11th of next month i am pretty happy about that. my other friend just left for a tour with some bands and is ganna end up here in orlando with thursday so that should be a good show for sure. Been hanging out with room mates a lot and trying to find that one girl who wows me... i have also been hanging out with my good friends ashram and eddie alot they rock...... I have been wanting to draw badly but no time with school right now maybe tonight i will we will see. Untill then this day fades to gray.

To long

2002-09-16T02:44:57Z

Its been a long time sence i said anything in here. I want to say things are going well. Still looking for that one girl who wows me and I wow her. Been drawing alot lately. I love to draw makes me feel so good. Anyways I am still missing Melissa. I got my lip pierced. I think it looks ok. My sister dosent think so but she works at a bar what dose she know haha. I wish my dad could come up here i miss him it would be nice to hang out witht he big guy again. Whent to I O A today which rocked! I wish more people could go with me. I found out that someone I dont know reads my jurnal. Very cool to find out someone who dosent know me cares. Hung out with some friends from high school they do alot of drugs but its cool to hang with thiem. Also my room mates and I are getting along very good........... "Fades to gray"

being bored

2002-08-16T19:40:34Z

Being bored is not fun. Whent bowling last night with lenny and liz and josh and alex. It was fun, even thought i suck ass. Yesterday i was reminded of how it is to be sold out and just have someone not answer any of your calls when they said they wanted to hang out. If you are going to do something and tell people you are going to do something fucking do it! I am one of those poeple that takes someones world maybe i should change that. I miss melissa! and a good friend of mine is coming in to orlando someone who was one of the few people in orlando who where nice and did what they said they would do now she lives in DC and it sucks but atleast i get to see her.

ok its been a few days

2002-08-12T04:18:30Z

Its been a few days sence i have writin anything in here. The reason being i was in the keys with my mom and dad and sister and her boy friend. All very good people but i was the fith wheel.... its like being there third but worse. My mom and Dad are at that stage where the kids have moved out so they are young again and my sister and her boyfriend well they are still young. Also being in the keys every where i looked there where couples allllllll over the place smiling and being all happy fucking assholes. So as if i didnt want a girl friend befor i wanted one even more now and to top things off my fam was harping on me that i didnt have one. My dad even said that if i did i could have brought her with me. You have any idea how awesome that would have been. Yea the keys may be alittle lame but when you are with someone i know it would be such an awesome thing. Then i got sick and so did my sis. my sis gave me a bad cold we had to go to the doc and by the time i felt better it was time to go. Yea i tried to do things but it just made me depressed which made me more sick while even though my sis was just as sick she still got up and did more stuff than me cuz her b/f was there. I leave to go back to orlando tomorrow. I hope things will get better and i hope i find a g/f who likes me soon it would just be so nice to have someone to do things with..........some vacation huh?

hmm

2002-08-06T03:13:47Z

Plans fell through tonight and no one wanted to hang out so i stayed home.......... fun

arg

2002-08-04T08:08:27Z

I come home and i get th same thing i got up there no one waned to hang out with me..... damb thats depressing but i did finoly hang out with an awesome person who is my best friends sister who rocks more than most Thanks to kell for being awesome....Fades to gray

poo

2002-08-03T00:22:22Z

ok i hope this dosent piss anyone off. O.k. today i whent to get my car fix and they fixed it but i need to spend 300 bucks soon for something else going bad on it. but lets get to the point. She found a b/f which is good and i am happy for her but at the same time i am saden because i think this might be a good guy for her and well i am a tad bit jelouse. So here is the thought of today..."A loved ones happyness is worth more to me then the happyness of myself" I miss you.........

art

2002-08-02T05:07:44Z

So yea today i did art, whent to my sises bar and wached everyone walk by and do there little thing wached how people laughed and how people talked, how people got drunk and smoked there cancer sticks. Made me thank god i am not one of those people. I wait for that one girl that rocks my world and thinks of me as someone they can love..................fades to gray

as i thought

2002-08-01T06:32:39Z

Well i didnt do shit today. I did talk to melissa which was the best thing that happend all day cuz you know what even though she lives 100000 miles away she calls. Because she loves me. Why didnt i go to U arts with her?

today fades to gray

and how

2002-07-31T22:30:40Z

nothing to do today no one has called me to do anyhting ............. fade to gray